Letting Go

He’s not mine.

I always keep my hopes up. I’m always expecting him to do the same for me. I always see him as the future type of guy i want to spend my whole life with. As i wander without him, i still insist that i have to come back to him when the adventure is over. Just a thought of us walking beside the ocean, appreciating our togetherness means the world to me. I appreciate him more than he thinks i am.

But in just a glimpse of unsteadiness, all of it, the past,dreams and memories. The memories. I want to forget. I want to leave behind. I want to runaway from the dangers of his heart. I want to start a brand new life without him cause i know, i deserve much better. He does not know i’m leaving. I know.

I was a slave of this desire. This desire of him that will only cause me to be hurt once more. The expectation that leads me to forget the best plans God laid out for me. Maybe i don’t deserve him.

This hurts that i’m feeling inside, are the ones that will cause me to be free from the bondage of wrong hopes. This time, i have the courage to say the words that i was afraid to tell him …

Goodbye.

Designing an Auditorium

MAG(Magat,Antido,Glino) The Creators. 

       This is a group project on one of our major subject Building Utilities 3. We're required to design an Auditorium that can accomodate 300 people. Our design concept is Galaxy. We used Google Sketch Up+Vray and Photoshop. 

Hair Transformation

      

    Hairstyles from 2009-2013.

Visual Techniques Plates

Still Life 

Architectural Rendering 

My first Scale Model 

Painting using Prang Watercolors

Me at 18: Unfinished

        The waiting is finally over. Almost all girls dream to have this kind of celebration and I'm one of those. I pray that this moment in my life, I want to praise God for who He is in my 18 years of my existence. This is not about me and I praise God that He has given me the desire to extend his love and grace by sharing my life experiences and life's revelation. Truly, this is one of those moments that creates a big turning point in my life.

Most of my visitors were my closest friends from church, highschool and college. The event was held in Stonehouse Hotel at E.rodriguez, Quezon City. 

                Oh, Originally, I really don't have an escort but my mentor surprised me to have a game where boys will compete to each other to won and be my escort. They danced gangnam style and that's itt, Nathaniel was chosen! My highschool friend! =)

Most unforgettable moment of my life, my first dance. A dance with my father. Look how happy I was! 

This photo is so cute. Our first picture together with papa. So Happy!

Then, at the last part of my program I give my own speech about the event and how God acted upon my life. Some of the excerpts in my script, "That I've found my identity in Christ. What I am today is who God is upon my life. God is so faithful that I want him to be exalted even in this joyous times. For he is the reason why I'm living. To God be the glory. He's so good"

Here's a video of my presentation, I sang "Steady my Heart-Kari Jobe"

Logo for Campus Ministry

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   Our church will be having a new ministry on campuses. Pinangalanan namin itong "Right track" and ako ang na'assign na gumawa ng logo nito.

   Thank you Lord dahil nagawa ko ito. Kung hindi dahil sayo, wala ito. All glory to you. 

Sabi ng iba ...

 "You can't please everybody."


   Sabi ng iba, masungit ka. Sabi rin nila na wala kang magagawa, na hindi mo kaya. Sabi nila, wala kang mararating at hindi mo kayang umangat. Sabi din nila na hindi ka maganda. Maputi ka lang kaya mo sila nakukuha. Sabi nila, malaki butas ng ilong mo at makapal ang labi mo. Hindi ka maganda o gwapo. Sabi nila, walang seryosong magmamahal sayo dahil sa maruming nakaraan mo.

   Iyan ang karaniwang naririnig natin sa iba. Minsan pa nga'y naririnig ng tenga pero tumatagos sa puso. Kapag narinig, ang laki ng epekto sa atin diba?. Una, nawawalan tayo ng self-confidence. Self-confidence na magstand out na marinig ang ating opinyon. Confidence na mag-share ng perspectives natin sa mga bagay. Pangalawa, dahil sa sinasabi ng iba, we're not leaving our comfort zones. We're not discovering something different because we might fail. Dahil sa sinasabi nila, wala ka ng ginawa kundi manatili sa kung anong kaya mo lang gawin. Hindi mo alam meron ka palang ibang kayang gawin, naghihintay lang kung iddiscover mo. Pangatlo, eto ay ang low self-esteem. Dahil sa sinasabi nila, maging ang ating sarili, lalo nating dinodown. Nanggagaling sa ating sarili ang discouragement, ang takot, ang failures and hatred. 

   Pang-apat, we're being an introvert person. It is Where Shyness rules. Nahihiya tayong makipag-usap. Yung tipong, nageenjoy ka magisa.

   But above all this, there's an answer to prevent these. Kala mo ba magtatagumpay ang lahat ng sinasabi nila? No, it's not. We're experiencing these things to remind us that we're weak. We need someone who is greater than us.  Who will teach us to let go of these things and that is in Jesus Christ.

   Jesus can teach us the art of healing. He'll heal the wounds in our hearts and cast out our fears. (Psalm 147:3) After that, He'll restore you and give you your true identity. Friends, peers and families can comfort us but nothing can beat God's comfort and healing. Try mo minsan kasi based on my experience, 100% Effective siya.

  Let go and Let God. "Do what God pleases" is better than "Pleasing everybody"
  Stand out and Shine. :)))


God Bless.
-Rajj