He’s not mine.
I always keep my hopes up. I’m always expecting him to do the same for me. I always see him as the future type of guy i want to spend my whole life with. As i wander without him, i still insist that i have to come back to him when the adventure is over. Just a thought of us walking beside the ocean, appreciating our togetherness means the world to me. I appreciate him more than he thinks i am.
But in just a glimpse of unsteadiness, all of it, the past,dreams and memories. The memories. I want to forget. I want to leave behind. I want to runaway from the dangers of his heart. I want to start a brand new life without him cause i know, i deserve much better. He does not know i’m leaving. I know.
I was a slave of this desire. This desire of him that will only cause me to be hurt once more. The expectation that leads me to forget the best plans God laid out for me. Maybe i don’t deserve him.
This hurts that i’m feeling inside, are the ones that will cause me to be free from the bondage of wrong hopes. This time, i have the courage to say the words that i was afraid to tell him …
Goodbye.
