My name is Rajah Magat and I’m 17 years old. I have four siblings, three brothers and one older sister. In my childhood days, I’m enduring the life that I’ve always dreamed of. A life with a comfortable lifestyle, I have friends to be with and I have a happy and complete family that I was belonged with. But those days was suddenly gone just like a glimpse of an eye. I had to face the reality and the sad part of my life when my parents got separated. My father did a disgrace on our family. He got into another relationship that caused him to took away all the money that he and my mother persevere to have that cost half a million and our newly constructed house. My mother allowed him to take away all the money but not the house because she said it was for us. In my innocent eyes, I already saw the painful and sad reality of my life. I saw my mother tried her best to be brave for us. Our dreams are broken like a fragile glass.
Even though my father got into another relationship, he still supporting us financially even to this day but his support doesn’t meet the needs of his children. We are lack of guidance and embrace of a father. He was like an artificial father to us. His heart was away from his children and he was the reason why my older sister got a heart problem. That was a painful trauma that I faced in the age of 7. Because of the circumstances, it had a great effect on my personality and my life. I didn’t feel like I’m a special person because of the rejection that I experienced. From that day, I always wanted to feel the love and attention of the people around me. I fear rejections and disappointments from people. I gained many friends to satisfy my longing heart and I need to be wanted by them.
In order to gain their attention, I strived hard on school. I always do my best to be on the cream of the crop in order for my family to be proud of me. In everything I do, I always rely on my own knowledge and strength. Then one time, a group of people came to our community that ministered for the work of the Lord. Me, my younger brother and my mother got involved on their church named La Loma Baptist Church at the age of 9 and got saved on May 1, 2004 and got baptized. I’m so very blessed to know Jesus as my Lord and Savior at a very young age. I knew the worth why he died on the cross and that was to redeem us and pay the debts we cannot pay. The need to be wanted by others was gone because I was satisfied and fulfilled by what God had shown me. That was the starting point of my Christian life.
But as a graduating student in elementary, I prioritized my study rather than going to church. I was focused on school that my spiritual growth became stagnant because I wasn’t able to go to church that time. As the time goes by, I felt my heart was far from God. I graduated as 5th honorable mention on our graduating class. Praise God! In summer 2007, there was again a group of people that came into our community to minister for the work of God. I was so hungry and longing for the word of God. I want to experience again the fire that is in my heart before and again, we got involved into this church named Philadelphia Christ-centered Fellowship. I got into children and youth ministry and I find myself coming back into God’s presence.
I started maturing as an individual both physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually because I was on my teenage years. I put my foundation to God’s word and started attending bible studies that helped me to grow more in Christ. God has started a good foundation in my faith and Christian life. Then, we moved to daughter church of PCF named Philadelphia Christ-centered Fellowship Brickstone Hills Ministry. Because of my hectic schedule due to school’s requirements and peer pressures, I was being held into the offers of this world. I started to choose my friends and fun instead of God. There was a big misunderstanding that happened between me and my churchmates and because of that, I stumbled. I cried and ask God for forgiveness and I humbly come down to him with an open heart. I found the worst consequences of my sins and promised God that I will never do that again. My heart was filled of guilt before God by what I’d done but I’m thankful to God that I’ve experienced that downfall because I know that if I haven’t experienced that, I will never became the one you’re seeing right now that had been changed by God. That circumstance begins a big change in my Christian life.
God has using our downfalls for us to learn our lessons. Just like a father, he disciplines us and corrects us in a unique and different kind of way. I got involved into different ministries and continuing my walk as a Christian. I’m seeing myself continuing the work of the Lord on me. My heart that was longing for a father was finally filled with his love and embrace as he said on Psalms 27:10, “Though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will receive me.” I didn’t feel that I’m forsaken by anyone because He was with me as he said on Hebrews 13:5b, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.”
I didn’t depend on my own abilities, knowledge and strength but on God alone. I hold on into his plan for me as He said on Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” I commit all my plans to him as Solomon said in (Proverbs 16:3) “Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.” because in him, I believe that nothing is impossible (Luke 1:37).
I’m now on second year taking up BS Architecture on Polytechnic University of the Philippines. This course was not on my list but God moved to it. His plans are greater than I. Everything falls back into place because he is the one who act upon it. Even though this was a tough and challenging course, this made me closer to God and always made me think that without God I can’t do my plates and projects. Without God I have no abilities and skills. Without God, I can do nothing. Seeking God first and leaning to his word is where I hold unto.
I’m going to share my life verse that is found on Proverbs 8:23 “I was appointed from eternity from the beginning before the world began.” I believe that God has chosen me and for his purpose I will live. I’m now in the process of God’s development and looking forward that God will use me effectively on his ministry. Trusting God what He will going to do in my life and will make me a successful licensed architect and minister someday. For I was appointed by him and nothing will separate me from his love as Paul said on Romans 8:38-39 “For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
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