Memories

 It’s so hard to forget someone who gave you so many wonderful things to remember. 

 We’re like the lovers Romeo and Juliet. Hiding and sneaking out together just to save us from our heart’s pondering. We’re the young hearts in search of love and affection. As you smile back at me, your eyes bring meanings to our passionate desires. As the summer began, so does the spark, our spark. Each day that passed by, all i can do is think of you. The feelings that you made me feel, they’re all memories now.

 Why did it cost us something just to forget someone? 

 Memories keep our hopes up. We’re expecting too much from that person because we keep holding on to the memories they have left. We’re hurting because we’re still trying to figure out what it means to be with them but all you can do is to bring back the memories. 

 But these memories keeps us stronger as life goes on. It may instill us to strive out to love for more because we knew that reviving happiness is the key. Pursue love then expect nothing and let the memories dwell in the hunger of your soul. 

 After all this time, I still miss us. I still miss the memories. I still miss you. :(

3:58 am

I can’t sleep.

You’re still in my thoughts.
Do you also think of me? Do you still think of our past memories? I bet you’re not cause someone has been stealing your attention since the day i was gone.
Is she prettier than me? Sweeter than me?

Tired of keeping my hopes up but i just wanted to tell you that no matter how hurt my soul is, you have a big part in my heart. Always remember that.

No matter how this world’s being unfair to us, i will still believe in us. Maybe, this is just a time to refresh our souls so that we may fully understand the reasons for everything. I will wait. I will.

My eyes are heavy.

I should sleep now.

Letting Go

He’s not mine.

I always keep my hopes up. I’m always expecting him to do the same for me. I always see him as the future type of guy i want to spend my whole life with. As i wander without him, i still insist that i have to come back to him when the adventure is over. Just a thought of us walking beside the ocean, appreciating our togetherness means the world to me. I appreciate him more than he thinks i am.

But in just a glimpse of unsteadiness, all of it, the past,dreams and memories. The memories. I want to forget. I want to leave behind. I want to runaway from the dangers of his heart. I want to start a brand new life without him cause i know, i deserve much better. He does not know i’m leaving. I know.

I was a slave of this desire. This desire of him that will only cause me to be hurt once more. The expectation that leads me to forget the best plans God laid out for me. Maybe i don’t deserve him.

This hurts that i’m feeling inside, are the ones that will cause me to be free from the bondage of wrong hopes. This time, i have the courage to say the words that i was afraid to tell him …

Goodbye.